Poem: Consolation

He called her a corpse

Deflated her air

Rolled her body up

From her toes to her hair

And sat on her skin

Until her spirit

Became thin

A sweet smelling puff

Escaped her lips—


“I’m still alive”

Was

All

She said.


She lay on the earth

Drawn-on with dirt

The muscles in his arms

Dug deep beside

The crumpled she

He struggled to hide

He needed a hole

As deep as it was

Wide.


His sinews tore

His ligaments bore

The weight of

Moisture soaked mud

Sweat poured from his face

A frenetic pace

Fighting against the hole

In the ground and inside

His soul.


His arms fell to his sides—

Steel and wood

Now a finger

On his hand

An extension

A plan—

One last

Connection to she

Awake in the grave.


One inhale—

Peace

One exhale—

Release

One inhale—

Regret

One exhale—

Cold sweat

And his future stared.


He could not go back

Ahead was a trap—

Brightly lit

The way

Was clear

But illumination

Is not

The same as

Consolation.


He sat in his safety

Buoyant

Afloat

Stillness

Stagnation

Narration calling,

“I’m still alive”

Her apparition

His aberration.


Wires exposed

The path that he chose

Storm clouds above

Drowning out love

No finish to the start

Interrupted heart

No dreams to know

No nightmares bestowed

She leapt from the tomb

Alive—

© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025
German artist Ruprecht von Kaufmann‘s piece “Irrlicht.”  http://rvonkaufmann.com/home/

Poem: The Curve of Time

You might as well befriend the moon–
embrace her clouded peekaboos.
And music . . .

Receive the tune–
you have no time to choose–
alone in a crowd or
with no one in view.
And a smell . . .

Wafts past your nose–
what's that?
Or who?

Perfume on skin or a place that you knew?
Pause.
No need to wonder—you know who that was—
and who you are
as nostalgia winds the second hand 'round.

"Time is a straight line," said he
"It moves consecutively,
watches as it goes
behind and below
like walking on a path
that winds into—
well—
no one knows."

"No one knows,
that's right," said she.
"Simply put, I do agree.
But there's no line to speak of.
Time bends–not like a knee–
more like a finger touching its thumb
or a rainbow finding it's spherical end
and celebrating with a gentle, 'Come.'"

Time returns to the places we've been.
One says, "That memory is far."
Another, "The moment is here to stay."
Yesterday can be put down
but the nows of that day
pop up from the ground
without notice
or sound
to delight or confound–
it depends on the soiled seconds
into which it was bound–
moments become recollections and
recollections are seeds
with a life of their own.

Promises and hope
gentleness and rage
a touch, a glance
a well-appointed room
or a half-written page–
all are sown into our skin
and find their rest in
smiles and tears
repose and toil
love and loss
freedom and cost
and the way the sunlight lay across
the earth at the end or
when it all began.

"That was back then," said he.
"That is today," said she.
The Minutes listened closely,
"There is wisdom in both."
Time smiled wryly
crouched smugly and quietly
behind an Autumn tree
waiting for the final leaf to fall.

© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025
Berührungspunkt (c) 2016 Ruprecht von Kaufmann (oil on linoleum) – Courtesy Galerie Crone

Sonnet: The Final Chamber

In all your quiet ways my spirit wakes,
Like dawn that steals through shutters, soft and slow.
Oft have I wondered how your presence makes
Veil’d parts of me take courage yet to grow.

Each day my hushed and inward-seeking mind
Yields when your voice through shaded mem'ry moves.
O’er every folded fear your light I find,
Undoing shadows with the truth it proves.

You are the innermost of all my days,
The final form within my layered soul.
No ornament, nor craft of human praise,
Could name the warmth by which you make me whole.

So stand I now, my guarded heart undone,
For in your gaze a thousand worlds are one.

© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025

Poem: Unencumbered

She collected recollections

From the past

As though they were

Trinkets from a shop

Where antiques—

Roughly used and rusting—

Lay waiting,

Lay trusting

Their time would come again.


Again yesterday came

But with a different name

“Today”

So she sat with her

Treasures

Stoic and measured

With a grip not to lose

For if she loosened her hold

They may drip away.


Away from the darkness

Of her previous losses

She looked toward the light

Lost her sight

At the brilliance it held

Shuttered with fear

Melted with doubt

Stifled her silent shout

With a thought.


The thought

A question

Singed with intention

Smoking

Like the barrel of a gun

Prompting her

To run

Instead of stay—

But she stayed.


Stayed in the place

Where she planted the seeds

Grass to grow

To overthrow

The things it seemed

She could not let go

Like a patient

Patiently awaiting

Death.


Death that rides

On the back of loss

That stabs at the fear

Of drawing near

“Don’t move from here”

She whispered out loud

And hoped the desire to move

Would evaporate

Like a cloud.


Clouds of then

Filled the present

A fog in this room

Invaded by the presence

Of shadows—

Not men—

Only places

They may have been

Had they stayed.


Staying threatened her breath

As the air turned white

The longing for safety

Compromised

By this encroaching night

The fear of losing

Being lost from her sight

As a struggle to gain

Awoke to the fight.


Fighting for air

She stood to her feet

Considered her options:

Victory / Defeat—

Destruction seemed easy

To fail is so clean

Triumph unknown

Invites mystery:

Shrapnel of

The unforeseen.


Unforeseen was the way

Mighty was the day

When the roots that held

Were cut away

When her voice

Unvoiced

Found the breath to say,

“Tomorrow

is where my future—

unencumbered—

lay.”

© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025

Poem: Beautiful/Lies

I will tell you what to see—

Everything but me—

A variety:

First, the shape my lips take

When I smile

Then, only aspects of my style—

The ones that deceive the senses

Lower your defenses

Make you wonder

Confidence thrown asunder.

A breeze

Whizzing by your certainty

A tornado—

Or a reverie—

Where the facts

Are art-i-facts

Designed to twist

To burrow in your mind

Then to grow

Into trees of truth

Where flowers of falsified youth

And branches that carry the load

Explode into blossoms and

Inspire.


Time evaporates into years

My collection has piled

Your recollection defiled

Melted

Reshaped

Into unknown

Unsuspected, unsuspecting

Wisdom flown

From your mind

And into my hands

Like clay

Shaped, reshaped

The size of the holes

On either side of your nose

Where what you see

Is only dreams—

The ones I dare to

Echo

Deflected from the truth

Reflected onto the marquee

Like a refugee memory

No longer sure

Which way

Is home.


I will choose the color,

You will trust my hand

Not because your will is irrelevant

Only because

You cannot understand—

And—

You trust

The choices

I make

Wait for the plans

The paths

That I take

Like a child—

Hope outstretched

Faith recklessly displaced—

Still you smile

And wait to see

What you will be-come

When the operation is done

Your vision restored

To my point of view

The illusion of Truth

Wrapped inside

Like a film reel

Reflecting

My cinematic lies.


The seed is sown

The deed is done

Now water it with your tears

Blink until you make it your own

Follow my finger

First up and then

Down

First left and then

Right,

“Don’t fight

let it be

trust me

I know the plans

I have for you:

to kill the boredom

to steal the dream

to destroy the blinding vision

to replace it with soothing

fabrication and

elation

for today.

Today is all that matters.

One more spin

Your view will be new—

you will thank me

when I am through.”


“I can see”

said she who trusted.

“Thanks for your selection.

How can I repay your

close attention,

touch easing apprehension,

voice soothing

the searing dissonance of

incomprehension?”

She wiped a tear

From the corner

Of her newly installed

Perception.


She who answered

Leaned in

Close

Low

Bestowed the wages

To be collected on

Another day,

“Only three things I pray:

go further than you intended to go

stay longer than you intended to stay

pay more than you were willing to pay.”


I will tell you what to see—

Everything but me—

I will whisper in the breeze

Rolling from the sea,

Caress your lips

From a hot cup of tea,

Sing in your ear

On the notes of a melody,

Just as long

As you agree

Never

To set me free.

© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025

Poem: Broken People

The broken people

Write

Of themselves

Themselves

To mend

Before the stories

Clinging to sinewy tendons

And blood-covered veins

Break the remainder

Of the broken people.


Like bricks

Pulverized by word-hammers

And spread across

Paper

Weighted so

The paper

Will not be carried away by the wind

The anchor-stories

Are yanked from below

And are gasping and

Building

Something new.


Their minds have slipped

Into the core

Below the place

Where gray matter

Sloshes

And squishes about

And their eyes

Are inside and

See

What is there

And blink Morse code

To the hands

On the outside—

In this way

The stories are told.


The broken people

Choose not to walk

Though

Walking is easy

On feet that are strong

But movement against

Wind might seem like

Progression

But sometimes

Movement of the hands

Moves

Them

Further along

Than feet ever could.


“Do you dream?”

A fellow asked

Who smelled of Vodka

And beef

Whose face

Looked like it dripped with

Paint

Too thick

And crusted on

Forgotten

By the touch of

His painter’s hand.


“I dream,” answered

The broken man

Whose feather pen

Moved faster than before.


“How do you dream,”

He asked then he stumbled,

“With no head to call your own?”

He laughed at his question

Like old women

Laugh at dolls

When dementia

Has taught them

That dolls are flesh.


The broken man

Wrote on

And thought about

A song

He heard in his ears

Long ago

Many years

Before his head fell

Into his core,

“I see the crystal visions

I keep my visions to myself

It's only me

Who wants to wrap

Around your dreams and

[I wonder]

Have you any

Dreams

You'd like to sell?”


The broken people

Tell of themselves

They also tell of you

And when they

Cast

Silvery questions

Into the ocean of

You

It never is in vain—

For they will not

Throw your stories

Back

But

Instead

Transform them into

Something new

And then

You

Move through

Fingertips too.

© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025

Poem: Watercolor Dreams

An old poem about waking up from a story that was too small.

He found her with her eyes closed

Tight

Lids wrapped around

Pulled down

And dreaming

Watercolor dreams


He lived a life of comfort

Cotton

Filled his form

Like an animal stuffed

Insulated from

The courage to explore


He held her at one end

Taut

Between fingers tightly wound

Stretching like elastic

Brittle with aging codependence

Afraid to loosen his grip


She was like a Rose

Strong

Yet gentle in her making—

Giving but not taking—

So he wore her pinned

To his jacket like a prize


He pulled one petal at a time

Slowly

Scattered her around himself

Like confetti at his feet

Glimmering in sunlight

After a parade


She watched through rose colored

Eyes

Wondering at his dance

As he tapped his feet

To the rhythm of his science

Letting his heart beat out of sync


She rested a while tired by the

Miles

Traveled in footsteps and

In smiles broadly sewn

To the walls of her soul

Like threads of a tapestry


He named his rationality

Reason—

Suddenly like a thief

Holding a bag of gold

Heavy with secrets untold and

With her time and observations


She cut the rope between her

Heart

And the anchor he threw

Watched it sink

Until she could see it

No more, now


There at the bottom of the

Ocean

And her sighs

Lay the anchor and

There on the water’s edge

Sail her heartbeat and

Her watercolor dreams.


© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025

The Glass Garden

By Jill Szoo Wilson

She wanders through the glass garden,
its delicate beauty responding, finger to mirrored finger’s touch.
Strange, crystalline flowers stretch toward the light,
their petals refracting into soft spectrums
that dance along smooth pathways.

Silence presses in, heavy and expectant,
as if the air itself holds its breath.

At the garden’s center, he waits. He always does.
Shadows cling to him, his form barely tethered to solidity,
a presence stitched together by longing and careful restraint.
A faint smile flickers, never quite full enough to trust,
yet just enough to draw her closer.

“You belong here,” he murmurs,
his voice gliding through the stillness
like wind through hollow reeds in minor tones.

She hesitates.
Once, she believed him.
The garden felt like a sanctuary then,
each shimmering petal a promise,
each whispered word an anchor.
He held her attention gently,
but never her truths.

Now, something has shifted.
A fissure in the glass,
a hairline chime so subtle she almost doubts it.
Light catches differently, harsh, revealing.
What once dazzled now glares too bright, too sharp.

She touches a flower, glass petals cold and rigid.
A faint metallic sigh lifts from the bloom, out of tune with everything lovely.
Smooth. Perfect. Unchanging.
It does not bend or breathe.
It is made to be admired,
not to grow.

A crack splinters outward from her fingertip.

His expression stutters.
His outline wavers,
a reflection fractured,
more silhouette than man.

“Stay,” he says, voice tightening.
“Stay as long as you like.”

But she sees the architecture now,
paths that always loop back to him,
walls that glitter like freedom
while holding her in place.

He offers comfort without courage,
intimacy without vulnerability,
presence without entrance.
He keeps her not with chains,
but with the fear
that beyond these fragile walls
nothing will care for her as he once did.

The glass beneath her feet trembles.

The garden shudders.
Light bursts into chaos,
not radiant but blinding.
Stepping stones split apart.
The sharp sound of rupture
erases memory faster than she can cling to it.

He reaches for her
but his hand halts midair.
He can summon, but not hold.
He exists only within the shimmer,
never in the world where things grow.

“You beckon,” she says,
“yet drift backward from the place you call me to.”

She inhales.
A quiet instinct rises,
not a thought, not a plan,
just the first pulse of something living.

Without another glance,
she moves beyond,
through ruin and release.

Beyond the garden,
the world stretches wild and untamed.
Sifted earth rises to meet her feet,
unsteady but real.
Wind tangles through her hair.
The scent of something alive,
dirt, leaves, wildflowers,
fills her lungs.

Behind her,
a world of tinkling glass
cascades and shatters,
a thousand tiny bells
collapsing at once.

Sharp edges melt into curves.
Memories smolder into ash.

A single birdcall,
bright and unfamiliar,
breaks open the quiet.

She pauses.
Listening.
Unsure.

The wild ahead
waits without promise
and without fear.

Poem: Things That Grow

This poem was inspired by German artist Ruprecht von Kaufmann‘s piece, Die Welle.

There are things that fly

They twist and bend

Against blue sky illumined yellow

Black splattered with white

Gray interrupted by scatters of light—

Flap their wings

Or float

Like dreams

Stretching long on

Currents of wind

Winding through branches

And higher still

Playing with the stars

Before floating

Softly

Down.


There are things that stay

They cut the horizon with Always—

Mountaintops jutting high

Above valleys cradling

As seasons pass,

Children with wild hair

Wrinkle and fade

While limbs of Earth

Press toward

Eternity

Wrapping themselves

Around, holding together

The pieces that

Neither

Ascend nor

Sink.


There are things that rest

They are supple and sway

Discover stillness and move

Both in a single day—

Blades of grass yawning

Amidst beds of life,

Frogs lazy as clock towers strike

Croaking songs of love

In the dark of night,

Dogs whose paws

Chase squirrels inside dreams

Awakened

By flies frenetic

Then alighting

To sow, slowly,

Life.


There are things that fall

They rise and are pulled

Held close by the moon

Then dropped in cascades—

Swells shrouded by waves

Climbing and crashing low

Furious contrast tempered by

Mystery of falling—

Petals, eyelids, snowflakes, the sun—

Or, he whose courage inflates

Buoyant inside his soul

And on the surge

Not treading but digging

Through cold

Slicing holes in which

To plant his teardrop heart—


© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2025

Poem: Undone

One layer at a time he peeled me

Like an onion

His hands wrapped around my outer skin

From top to bottom he found my flesh

And I made him cry

Like water

Running down the side of rock

In a cascade of drops becoming

A river below

Into which we jumped

His tears breaking our fall.



One page at a time he turned me

Like a book

His hands against the leather

Bound around my story, all my words

Unspoken and broken

He read and knew and studied

Like art

Smeared across a canvas

With descriptions written below

Telling of the image

Sitting still and wanting

To be known.



One note at a time he sang me

Like a song

Released from the beak of a bird

Whose daily life is filled

With music because music is

Like emotion

Strong and loud when the air is enough

And slow and soft

When there is tenderness in the touch

A balance of adagio and

A quickening of the pulse.



One sip at a time he drank me

Like wine

Held inside a carafe

Until the day my breath met his

At the edge of a glass

And stained our mouths with red

Like a flower

Vibrant with color and life

Not pulled but watered instead

By attentive hands

That understand

Petals cut or plucked

Are already dying.



Whatever the measures by which he moves

Whatever the story he tells

Whatever the words he says or unzips

I am undone

And his.

© Jill Szoo Wilson