What Does Paper Know of Life?

From the desk of Iris Lennox.

What does paper know
of life?

Only what we tell it.

I spread the pages
across my kitchen table,
one hand on oak,
the other
on language.

Afternoon light
finds the margins first,
then the staples,
then the black strokes
of my name
pressed hard enough
to leave its mark
three sheets down.

Good.

Some truths
deserve
depth.

The paper remembers dates.

It remembers names.

It remembers
who stood where,
who reached first,
who kept speaking,
who went silent,
who needed silence
to feel safe.

The ceiling fan turns.

Edges lift, but dare not
fly away.

They stay.
Pressure makes some run
and others stay.

A throat is made
of cartilage,
muscle,
membrane,
two pale folds
opening
and closing
over air.

Pressure meets tissue.

Even a whisper
requires force.

I know this.

I have taught students
to plant their feet,
unlock their knees,
drop their shoulders,
open their ribs,
and send a line
to the back wall
without asking
the room
for permission.

Never ask for permission.

I have watched
a frightened girl
find her stomach
and then her voice.

I have watched
boys
speak one true sentence
without laughing
and become men.

I have watched
language
enter the body
and change
the way
a person stands.

So when the hand came,
when the pressure came,
when silence
came to wrap around,
to shut me down,
to choke
me—

I know
what a voice is.

The larynx bruises.

The breath adjusts.

Once,
I lost it.

But don’t worry about me.

I just drink the tea,
bite down on the Ricola,
and breathe.

Shakespeare told us
long ago,

“Speak the speech,
I pray you,
trippingly on the tongue,”

And I tripped.

A little.

Then I got back up.

And spoke
until cartilage,
muscle,
membrane,
air,
ink,
oak,
paper,
rooms,
whispers,
and men
who mistake women
for little girls

had to listen.

They reached for an instrument
they didn't understand.

So I took
what the body knew,
what the stage taught,
what the page required,
what courage costs,

and I used
all of it.

Outside,
water climbs
through xylem,
one molecule
pulling another.

Roots enter limestone
by touch.

A seed splits
in darkness

and takes root.

What does paper know
of life?

Only what
we tell it.

—Iris Lennox

First published on IrisLennox.com.

Actors as Truth-Tellers

By Jill Szoo Wilson

“Art is an expression of joy and awe. It is not an attempt to share one’s virtues and accomplishments with the audience, but an act of selfless spirit.”
— David Mamet, True and False: Heresy and Common Sense for the Actor

Most people who don’t go to the theatre or know any stage actors personally don’t understand the art at all. This is not an indictment of them. Indeed, how could they know what they haven’t been exposed to? For example, I don’t know the nuances of what a farmer contends with each day, nor do I understand his challenges, community, or questions.

But I do know theatre and acting and actors.

One of the things people miss about stage actors is how quickly they learn that nothing is about them. Before I go any further, I am referring to “stage actors” because I get the impression that film actors are different, in general. I am no respecter of Hollywood, and I loathe awards shows. So, for the purposes of this piece, just know I am writing about those who train in the theatre.

Mamet’s quote above is a good example of the selfless nature of the theatre artist. When an actor accepts a role, rehearses with the ensemble, and then steps onto the stage, all the audience knows of her is her face, her body, and her voice. They get a general sense of her presence and spirit, but they have no idea who she is because, in that space, she is simply a vessel for the playwright. She is a three-dimensional representation of a character. In theatre, we always ask ourselves, “Is this choice serving the script?” and “Am I serving the character?” There is no opportunity for the actor to tell her own story to the audience or, as Mamet writes, share her own accomplishments. Instead, she embodies the story being told.

Patsy Rodenburg, the creator of the Second Circle philosophy, says actors are the truth-tellers of a society. That’s a weighty claim. Let’s break it down.

Mamet says, “When you leave the theater wanting to discuss the play, that’s a good play. When you leave the theater wanting to discuss your life and the world, that’s art.”

Like Rodenburg, Mamet asserts that the theatre is a place where we go to uncover hidden things or to shine a spotlight on things that are so obvious we nearly miss them because we are taking them for granted. Discussions about family, power, the monotony and brilliance of life, love, loss, ceremony, and betrayal—the entirety of the human experience—is captured in plays. I can’t think of one theme that hasn’t been covered within the centuries-old collective of playwrights throughout the world.

When we see actors telling us the truth about ourselves, we, in turn, begin to look inward. That’s where every question begins: inside. We don’t really ask questions unless they deeply affect us. Questions are pulled out of us when we connect with a story. Stories don’t push questions into us, and we can’t push them into others. Something has to happen outside of us that touches the question on the inside of us. If you don’t believe me, begin to notice the impetus for the questions you ask in your own life. Is it external or internal? I digress…

It’s the actor’s responsibility to live truthfully in imaginary circumstances. We bring our whole selves to the moment in service of the role. What I mean, in summary, is that we bring everything unsaid, unseen, and undisclosed within ourselves and then ask, “How would I react in this situation?” The audience sees the truth of our responses but never our personal truth. In that way, we are telling the character’s truth. The more we tell the truth, the more connected the performance, and the more universal the truth being told.

“Find in yourself those human things which are universal.”
— Sanford Meisner

If you’ve ever known an actor personally, you’ve likely been surprised by our willingness to tell the truth in real life, too. I don’t mean that we always answer your questions truthfully or go on about what we’re thinking in all honesty. I mean that when you’re face to face with an actor who trusts you, she will feel compelled to bring her full self to the moment in an effort to see you and to be seen. This is true of any type of relationship she values.

For example, one of the things that exhausts me about teaching is that I bring my entire self to my students. I leave it all on the stage (or the classroom floor), as we say. And they, in turn, begin to bring their entire selves. As artists, we have to bring our entire selves because our entire self is the very tool with which we create our art.

Stella Adler, brilliant director, teacher, and actor, writes, “The actor has to develop his body. The actor has to work on his voice. But the most important thing the actor has to work on is his mind.”

It takes tremendous discipline to be an actor. We must learn to focus on the other person in the scene (all acting is reacting). We must grow accustomed to asking the questions that stir within us (even when they scare or intimidate us) and share those questions with others. We must be curious, present, vulnerable, intelligent, and discerning.

One thing I try to communicate and model for my students is that we don’t come to the theatre to pretend. We come to imagine. The example I use every semester is this:

If you and a friend are having a sleepover, and once the lights are turned off, you pretend a ghost is in the hall, you will most likely begin to physically show signs of fear. You might throw the covers over your head, pull your clenched hands to your face, and shriek, “Eeee!”

Conversely, if you imagine there is a ghost in the hall—if you really take the time to draw its features before your mind’s eye, to hear what it sounds like, to feel its presence, to watch for it, and to expect it to slip through the crack in the door at any moment—your body will respond very differently. In the first example, you are “showing” the fear to your friend. In this example, the fear becomes more real. Instead of throwing the covers over your head, you will most likely become still. Instead of shrieking, you’ll fall silent. You’ll tell the truth because you’ve allowed yourself to imagine “what if this were real?” and to act truthfully in an imaginary circumstance.

“The foundation of acting is the reality of doing.”
— Sanford Meisner

I’ll leave you with this…

The more personal something is, the more universal it is.

Good actors understand this instinctively, even the youngest ones. In fact, especially the youngest ones. It’s the adults who begin to forget how common their personal experiences are because they’re so busy posturing and posing and protecting. They try to cover their personal experiences because they—or someone—has deemed them unacceptable. They become rigid in their roles in real life, and thus they forget that they, too, are experiencing the joys, pains, longings, loneliness, routines, and stirring questions that most of the world is also experiencing alongside them. Adults tend to hide, which makes it more difficult for them to truly connect with others. Even so.

Whether in acting or in our daily lives, when we dare to tell the truth, especially when it’s difficult and we don’t even know how to fully put it into words, we open ourselves to authentic moments of connection—dynamic relationships in which both people are seen—and we hear one another without trying to control or manipulate the other or our own reactions.

So, tell the truth. You’ll immediately raise suspicions, lose friends, and make people uncomfortable… but you’ll also relieve someone’s loneliness, build authentic relationships, and give others a place to be themselves.

Here are some great questions to help you get started from Mamet himself. In the quote, he’s obviously talking to playwrights, but the questions work in any context you can imagine:

“Every scene should be able to answer three questions: Who wants what from whom? What happens if they don’t get it? Why now?”
— David Mamet

Let me know how it goes!

Beyond Equivocation: Say What You Mean with Confidence

When I was a sophomore in high school, I had an English teacher I admired greatly. She taught me how to properly structure essays and understand the mechanics of writing. One afternoon, I was called into her classroom to work on an essay she had given a failing grade. I was flummoxed by her judgment in the moment and let her know.

“You have to learn how to do it correctly before you can break the rules of writing. Right now, we are learning the right way.”

A couple of years after I graduated, I went back to visit her. We remembered that moment together, and I thanked her for the discipline she forced me into.

While I’m grateful for that lesson, it isn’t what I remember most.

The treasure I carry from her is this:

“Don’t ever justify yourself in writing. Don’t say ‘I think’ this or ‘I believe’ that. Just say what you mean and move on.”

I’ve written that way ever since.

For me, at fifteen, her advice was revolutionary. Girls are raised to be nice, to soften their language, and to defer to more established voices. Truth is often framed as something to be approved before it can be spoken.

I give this advice to every student who comes to me in the writing center or in class, and I feel a special conviction for it when I’m speaking to young women:

Write the truth. Stand behind it. Don’t justify your own thoughts.

At some point, you learn to recognize the difference between a sentence that is reaching outward and one that already says what you mean, in confidence. You can feel it when it settles, when the words hold their weight and don’t need to be subject to equivocation. That is the place to write from, not as a performance or a plea but as a statement. Something known, something claimed, something set down with the full understanding that you might change your mind tomorrow or next year, but for today, this is exactly what you meant to say.

Poem: And She Flew

Currents of wind
Grasping blue
From the sky

Mixing colors—
Translucent white
Floating by

In puffs
Like smoke
But water

Cascading
Masquerading
As clouds, drifting down
To rest upon
The ocean’s top

Atop the undercurrents
Pulling dark and light
Together

In a haze
Under the phase
Of the moon

Where fullness
Steers the darkness
From the light.

At night the sense of
Flight
Alights

In dreams and hopes
A knotted rope
Hangs from the stars

And swings
As she sings
Like a bird

Whose song is sung
Carelessly
Without thought

She calls into the night
Filling it
From empty
To bright

And falls into
The space where
Downwind caresses
Upwind lifts

And buoyancy calls her
Higher still.

As hummingbirds swing
Creatures below
Sting

With venom held
Inside teeth
Red with the catching

Stories repeat
Through dust and mold
Dark with lies

Whispered inside
By unseen spies
Who feed on souls

Who fill the roles
Like actors
Paid to play

Unable to reach
The heart
And open—

Unfold
Like art.

The ones below
Whose wings were clipped
Set a scheme

Narrow as a
Tightrope
A balance beam

A trap
Set with bait
And they waited

Inside a box
Designed to promise
The only way

Into hope
From hopelessness—
To pull her down

To steal her crown

A crucible
Of fire
Inside folded walls

Where stories
Cease to be told.

She flapped her wings
Tilted her head
Toward the earth

Wondered
Then wandered
Through the expanse

Where freedom
Takes its chance
On little birds

Such as she

She caught a breeze
Saw her reflection
In the sea

Caught a glimpse
Of her worth

And floated down
To the cardboard flaps
Of the box

The dark ones
Moved
Like worms

The kind of worms
Eaten by birds.

It looked easy enough

Fold the second flap
Then the first
And follow the way

They had planned

To be kept
From the sky
From the breeze

From the warmth of the sun
The turn of the season

From the spring
That would
Enchant her

Like a lover
Enhance her

With colors
Vibrant
Breathing
Beating

With life
To romance her.

“No,” she thought

And then—

“No,” she said

The comfort of that dark
Is stark

The safety of that space
Is small

A quiet that settles
For an hour

Sweet at first
Then turning

She felt it
And knew it

And chose—

She rose

And she flew
And she flew.

© Jill Szoo Wilson, 2026